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2018 (36)

August (1)

Nancy Hilliard R.I.P.: I just read a Facebook post by Nancy's sister Mary. Nancy died on July 30th. I notified Administrati...

July (2)

Someone could use support: Her user name is Sule. Her name is Saida. Her husband dx'd May 4, pancreatic cancer. I sense she mig...
July 4 Essay on Independence, Freedom, and Tyranny:     Keep in mind, before Emilee McDermott Klein died, before election day 2016, then Mr. Trump s...

June (1)

Poem - Anniversary Without: It has been a while since I have posted. This is a more recent post from my webpage, if you want to ...

April (5)

Trilogy (Plus) Of Poems - For A Smile And Chuckle : If your attention span is short, that is okay. You can take this in small doses. If you like longer ...
Please See new member (Patricia) 's Request:  Just in case you did not see her message, anyone who can help a new member, Patricia, with her hem...
Worried About Nancy, Let's Put Her In Our Prayers: It has been too quiet. I have sent messages and all I got back was a wave and a sad face in Facebook...
Teacher's Class Sings After Cancer Dx: https://www.facebook.com/SingingVideos/videos/2125703300982048/ Check out this video. It got me In ...
Barbara (Emsnana) - A Beautiful Memorial Service: Most of the time life keeps us from doing things we would like to do if only this...or that. This is...

March (5)

Poem - Alone Or A Part: I wrote this on what would have been my mom’s 95th birthday, but is it to her? I don’t know. Is ...
Amazing Musician Eva Cassidy: I recently discovered Eva Cassidy, an amazing musician who became very well known only after she die...
Understanding Grief, P.S.: P.S. One more thing. I keep feeling this parallel between having cancer, either going through treat...
Understanding Grief, Or Not: This is a handout from a grief support group. I will share it and then add some words of my own at t...
Link - Info on Hyperbaric Oxygen Chamber Therapy: There is more info like this out there, if someone was interested that site would be a good place to...

February (7)

Poems - Winter, Clouds, Sun, Tragedy in Florida: Apologies...the formatting for whatever reason....on this first poem, is all messed up and i cannot ...
A Poem - Two In Time: A poem that needed rehab...from years ago I found, One of my lost babies, I caressed and comforted,...
A Walk To The Memorial...Finally: http://www.lifeafteremilee.com/a-walk-to-the-memorial-finally/    This is the website link with th...
My Twelve Year Old Self Struggles With ...:   I was twelve. It was May 12, 1966, a Thursday. We had moved into this house eight months ago on ...
A Song Of Mine - My Protest Song: This is probably not the type of song to introduce you to myself singing and playing  (actually I t...
please welcome a new member: Please respond to Stoyanka.... a stage 4 breast cancer survivor... Thank you... She just posted her ...
Emilee's One Year Anniversary: I made it ... well... it is kind of like something that is radioactive...if you get tooo close you a...

January (15)

POEM - Welcome Home: I wrote this 17 years ago around the time my Mom died of uterine cancer. I just found it in a folder...
A Day With Some Joyous Moments: https://youtu.be/rn4F4HhXrVI     Celine Dion .....Miracle, A Celebration of New Life    Emilee...
Anything Benson - Music to Make Your Insides Smile: My first intro to jazz was a roommate's turning me onto George Benson.... It was a good place to sta...
Home - A Perspective And A Poem From Emilee: Some people, before they die, ask to be taken home. This is both very sad, for us, and yet very beau...
My Breakfast Cereal and Some Ideas:   Somehow, after listing the link for the cheesecake, I thought I would share a few ideas that mig...
Vegan sugar free cheese cake: Www.http/youtu.be/KtJypFpYIFg  scroll down to the one that says best vegan sugar free cheesecake w...
Poet David Whyte On Childhood Trauma And Adulthood: David Whyte, ….on childhood trauma...from his book titled The Heart Aroused (1992). Now, David Why...
Poem - Falling : This poem came as I was feeling pulled to sadness, as I approach the one year anniversary of Emilee'...
POEM The Layers, by Stanley Kunitz - Life And Loss: Someone in my poetry group shared this poem, not hers, by Stanley Kunitz. It spoke to me, and thoug...
Chuck Loeb (With The Angels) And Related Artists: Chuck Loeb went to musical heaven 5 months ago...huge loss...this music is verrrrrry clean, crisp, a...
Poetry Dilemma - Serious, Or Humor With A Tremor: Maybe you, too, will laugh at the choice of my lines in a poem,...serious versus a chuckle...just ta...
' I Can't Get Rid Of This Empty Post...LOL: Seriously, LOL, I don't know what happened.....it saved an apostrophe (in the title box) as a post.....
My Few Words On Anal Cancer And A Friend's Post: I posted this on my facebook page and wanted to share it here. This post is to honor a friend who ...
Poem - Beauty: Some beautiful people take their beauty for granted, and others are grateful and humble. Others are ...
The Space, A Poem on Thoughts: The first poem of 2018 A poem that has to do with NOTHING and EVERYTHING And an interesting observ...

2017 (99)

December (5)

A Memory at Eleven Months: First, a letter to my grandson who is one years old today. It is also almost eleven months (will be ...
This Is...Kenny Loggins...In 2017...Just Amazing: Just get as comfortable as you can, and enjoy this concert from beginning to end. The first couple ...
Sayings And My Thoughts On Resolutions: Note: The links aren't working right. So I listed the quotes at the bottom. I could probably put th...
The Lure Of A Chance To Win In A Contest: I must discuss why it is, that I can be just like a little psychology lab rat, you know, the ones th...
POEM - What Color: I copied (freehand drawn) a drawing of Snoopy with a bouquet of flowers and the caption is ...."you ...

November (13)

POEM - Once I Had An Idea ... Smile?: Once I had an idea   Once Once I Once I… had an idea Brilliant in conception flawless in ex...
Thanks: Note to YOU: When I needed voices to comfort me You were there When I needed to know I was not al...
Anatomy Of A Song to Distract and Bring a Smile: listen. I hope on the one hand that I am NOT boring you...lol.... on the other hand....and thank God...
A Couple Of His Poems: Just to give you a taste, the rest is up to you...Poems by David Whyte THE LIGHTEST TOUCH Good poe...
A Poet I Have Long Enjoyed...A Word on Friendship: Just one example.....David Whyte, an excerpt on what he said about friendship...so many of his poems...
Info on Hyperbaric Oxygen Chamber Therapy : This is the response from Pancan, which is not overly helpful (but it is a start and so far does not...
Where There Is A Will....Allow Me To Share A Song: https://youtu.be/ADdNbtP5DTc I finally figured out how to post a song here.  It took me long enoug...
Roseanne Roseannadana comments on Arms: Roseanne on the right to bear arms Editor’s Note: Listen....let's get something straight here...t...
POEM - Serendipity With Levity In Mind: dear Emilee McDermott Klein  after losing a poem to our son and daughter in law on their annivers...
POEM - Grieving Souls for Shooting Victims: For those grieving for lost loved ones anywhere, but right now, especially for Sutherland Springs, T...
Please Sample .....Joe Sample: I cannot leave out this artist who....as someone phrased, "continued" in 2014, and I absolutely love...
A Mixed Anthology Of One Guitarist Thru The Years: All right...before I lose this whole thing....I needed to share some of Larry Carlton's both artisty...
amazing music....for the soul: these are all youtube links that will ...I hope.... bring you incredible emotions....hope, love, tea...

October (9)

Experiencing Loss As A Process That Transforms:      It is difficult to sum up grief in several paragraphs or one poem or one long saying or pi...
FOR ANN - POEM - Spread Your Wings: SPREAD YOUR WINGS   Angels fly Just like doves And eagles high above Spreading love Carrying ...
Emilee's Clothes: Emilee's Clothes. Sounds like the title of a poem or a story. The Emperor's clothes. It IS a story....
Poem - You Be Yang...or The Force Of Love: I keep changing, editing, adding a word, changing a word, just added the repeating two lines, I am f...
Seven Attitudes For Mindfulness: Seven Attitudes For Mindfulness (Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn) I think this is very im...
anyone having problems editing within your post?: the orange cursor that comes up when trying to edit ...maybe it is just on my phone.... okay so neve...
POEM - As I Sit In Heaven: Much of this is author unknown, an online friend who lost his brother a few years ago posted it, and...
Comment...The Las Vegas Massacre, And The Villages: The Las Vegas massacre, I purposely did not watch the news after the tragedy. I listened to some of ...
Good Morning Poem: Just thought I would share a poem/song. Initially a poem, it fit too well into a tune in my head, so...

September (9)

Day of Atonement:   Note: Up until a couple of months ago (at which time I attended two Friday night services at a S...
Songs to Emote By:  Day 29 of my birthday month Why post these songs? Music is powerful, often hitting the emotional ...
A Day, A Poem, A Song : okay……Day 26….I am doing my best to Not get washed over with the same Melancholy that happens ...
A Passage About Death From A William Saroyan Book: William Saroyan won a Pulitzer Prize for the play, The Time of Your Life, in 1940. Also well known f...
Mindfulness Meditation:   Why am I posting this here? Of all places, I think this site is the most important place for thi...
Some Memories Of September 11, 2001: I hesitated sharing this here, but, maybe someone else needs to remember too, or someone needs to kn...
Now That I am Sixty Four: You have to sing this....to the Beatles song ....WHEN I'M SIXTY FOUR...which for today....is titled...
Sad Or Hopeful? I Think Hopeful Through Sadness: I am full of such light fluff...lol. Emilee...I am sorry...I did the best I could...I vow to do bet...
Day 31, Final Moments, Puff The Magic Dragon: The Nina Simone Link..........https://youtu.be/D5Y11hwjMNs   so...as this day begins to wind down...

August (21)

Day 31, That Familiar Melancholy:   This was prompted by the person who bought our old house on Long Island. She and Emilee stay...
Day 29, Something is Washing Over Me : (Authors note:  I tried not to edit this too much, so some sentences may be long winded, like the t...
Day 28, Sunflowers March, New Word for Humans:   Day 28, Birthday Month, Sunflowers March on Washington  By Neal Klein | August 28, 2017  ...
Mishmosh, Summary Of A Day, and more: Mishmosh...means a real mix of stuff. What you have here.....lol...reminds me of a line from a movie...
Almost Cut My Hair Today, CSNY: Happy Day 22 of Em's birthday month I have no idea why this title, I just heard the song in my head...
Birthday Month, Day 20 : This is Emilee's birthday month. I post every day on her facebook page. Her birthday would have been...
Please Thank JILL and Dee: Anyone that is enjoying the changes in navigating and responding to posts... such as when you hit "l...
Test Post: Dee,  This is your test post.  By the way...I just clicked on "like" on a comment on my post and ...
The Whole In Your Heart: The Whole in Your Heart     I think this is a song… after singing Adele’s "When We Were Yo...
don't forget to click on ads:  clicking on the ads on this site helps bring in clicking on the ads on this site helps bring in Re...
also...to donate...click company, then donate: on the blue banner along the top of the page where it says "COMPANY"  click on company.....then cli...
The Missing Buddhist : The first post seems to have vibrated itself up to a higher plane of existence and is no longer visi...
www.blogforacure.com/frontend/pages/donate.php: https://www.blogforacure.com/frontend/pages/donate.php   for making a donation... copy and paste ...
startrktrials.com. anyone else see this?:  so I just saw so I just saw this today this is a private pharmaceutical company running trials on ...
Jill.needs donations for this website: https://www.blogforacure.com/frontend/pages/donate.php ok... I came back and posted the link above ...
anyone having problems here?: Seems to be a glitch in getting to the Buddha post ...lol...karma baby...lol...I must have aggravate...
Thank you and some Bhuddhist sayings: Thank you all for your kind words and generous support. I just started a book called The Wise heart...
By the Way...About August 3: August 3, 2017 is the best piece I ever wrote. Actually, it was an accident. Still, I kind of like i...
Dear Easterly Et Al: If you find my content objectionable for whatever reason, STOP READING. See how easy that is? ...
What I First Wrote on Ann's Page: Not sure if anyone saw this or not, since I originally posted it on Ann's page, so here it is again,...
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July (4)

The Clock of Time, A Vision of Mine: I post this with hesitation, and hope that in talking of life and death, I am not offending anyone h...
My Jumble Of Thoughts, and 9/11 MEMORIAL VISIT: Why read this? Good question. If nothing else, it may distract you for a few minutes. Also, the Memo...
A Town Gathers For a Boy's Death: Vigil on the Green Oh, I know many people will write about this, and the reporters will do their st...
Metaphor - Life, Loss, Rebirth, Cancer, More: Life Lessons and My Poor Hibiscus   July 6, 2017      Life Lessons and My Poor Hibiscus My...

June (6)

NCI Article, Read, Learn, Keep Reading/Learning: So, call me ignorant okay? I know so little, and there is always soooo much more. After going to th...
Trametinib (brand name Mekinist): Trametinib | Chemotherapy Drug Information | Chemocare.com  nmitchk to youshow details Sharing ...
I Love Cyrano De Bergerac, Analysis (Love &Beauty): Some of this is borrowed from thought.com. The end is all mine. It is all about love. Romantic love....
PCAN Advocacy Day, Washington D.C.: June 20, 2017 Approximately 650 to 700 family members, current patients, and survivors of various l...
Music can be extraordinarily healing: https://youtu.be/4_cxZGo7vqU?list=RD4_cxZGo7vqU I don't know if this link will work, but I am trying...
Rainbows On The Page:   June 5, 2017 Intro to Rainbow Post (second time around) One of the worst feelings is to lose s...

May (11)

Affirmations, (Echoes) ... a Poem: Thank You. COMMENTS (ECHOES)  .... maybe a better word than "comments" is "affirmations"...not sur...
Winnie, friend to the end: WINNIE Winnie is a Boyd bear (a stuffed toy, cuddly bear, wearing pink overalls) we adopted somewhe...
Humor For Today, Ear noise and Abbreviations, Etc.: This was in response to a post, but I couldn't let it just drift into obscurity, so perhaps it will ...
A Drink and a Wish, from the Well: a Poem and a Wish, for those who just need a little something   DRINK FROM THE WELL     Only...
Mothers:  for all the mothers who ..... as the last lines of this prayer speak of bringing a certain vision ...
The original prayer was called, WHEN I DIE: So, this is verbatim as it appears in the prayer book, a little different from what I wrote WHEN I ...
These Are A Few Of My Favorite Things: If you are feeling miserable you may resist this, and I understand.  Just humor me for a few minute...
The Oak Tree, A Message of Encouragement: This was a poem on a  card to Emilee (from her mother), in which her mom wished her strength to end...
Words of Encouragement, Hugs for the Soul: A quote I found on Bernie Siegel’s website that spoke to my heart.  Flatter me, and I may not be...
Give My Love Away, a poem: Loosely based on a Hebrew prayer, after attending service at a synagogue after 17 years   To my d...
Unrequested hugs, a poem: unrequested hugs, especially when I am body slammed at a full run (she is almost two years old), wit...

April (8)

It Began With Sunbeams, a poem: Emilee loved the feel of sunbeams on her face, whether in the house or in the car, the warmth of the...
Spring Showers From My Eyes: For some reason, waterworks from my eyes come easily the last couple of days. And no, I don't think ...
Dear Cancer : Dear cancer, I am not sure I really I want to talk to you.  You took my Emilee,  almost three mon...
Panic's wave: when dread of the unknown gets a grip and panic washes over: scared stomach tightens whole body t...
eleven lines: you live in my heart my heart that beats 86,400 times a day and with each beat of my heart the re...
Cooking class,voices in my head, work in progress: I need to talk about the cooking class.  It seemed like such a simple thing to do, register for a c...
Yelling into the phone can be cathartic: I was so involved in trying to find a therapist...I got excited when I found someone that sounds goo...
Solitude and gratitude: I am talking to myself these days.  When my wife was alive, she would often tell me I talked more ...

March (7)

Cancer World.....Corridor at Smilow: Tuesday March 28, 2017             Cancer World…The Corridor at Smilow    You know...
Magic Lives On, Cancer Does Not: So, here is the thing about cancer.  You know that question on the profile, the one that asks what ...
Frightly Nightly News SNL style: Nightly News   Rumor has it that someone was tap…tap….tap… tap… dancing….. at the trump...
a drop of levity...by Roseann Roseannadana: Yes…I think we need bigger cars….and we need to lower emissions on cars…because ….there is N...
another party in heaven: Talking about Aunt Belle   My Aunt….my mom’s sister (mom passed in Jan 2001…she was 78….u...
revisiting her hospital floor, continuing to heal: March 9, 2017 Smilow visit and community choir I visited NP12 (Smilow, cancer hospital, 12th floor)...
come, join me in my world for a bit: Today, I passed a couple of thresholds, hurdled a few hurdles, and crashed through some force fields...

February (6)

sharin' my thoughts on lonely: still spelled melancholia wrong.....ha.... there is no melon in melancholy....lol....who says....if ...
melon callin' ya aka meloncholia: sometimes it is just ..... I don't know....easier?   to talk to a toy stuffed animal than it is to...
from Hair to There: Losing her hair was traumatic.  When her hair first starting falling out, it was as if she was mour...
bits and pieces as they come to me: the writing seems to help and I know that when you read this…..It helps keep Emilee alive in our h...
thanks: Want to thank you all for your heartfelt responses.  We must really share an uncommonly strong bond...
Pancreatic Cancer Journey: My wife of 16 years, Emilee, passed from pancreatic cancer (exocrine adenocarcinoma) on January 31, ...
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February 10, 2017

North Haven, Connecticut 06473

In Memory of a Loved One

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Pancreas Cancer

Stage 4

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